huh...really.

a great weekend the kids did have. spent time with our families, even an unexpected visitor which i was so happy to see, but it wasn't for me. I mean it was so great to see the kids enjoying themselves swimming, going to the zoo, just having a ball with their cousins. I'm sure they couldn't ask for more, well maybe! And I know life now isn't all about me anymore. That stopped almost 6 years ago. I wouldn't change having my kids at all. I love them more than words can even say. This blog is about me. I just feel that this life,aside from my kids, had been chosen for me. I had no say and this is what it is. I have too many bad genes that even i , supermom, can't fix. I let people take advantage of me too easily because I don't want to hurt anyone. But in the end, I'm only hurting myself. I grew up seeing horrible things and meeting horrible people, I don't want that anymore. I'm tired of living in someone else's shoes. I lost mine a long time ago, and i'd really like to have my own! I cleansed myself of one bad habbit only to pick up another. I cleasned my body of toxins only to become ill-er. I keep wondering when is the bridge going to give way? I could say I need a vacation but i'd still be coming back to same old same old. I'm not sure if I dream big or just wish I would've had a chance to choose, but for whatever reason it may be...here I am. This is me. Like it or leave it, I don't give a whoot anymore!..lol. Someday, I'll be better. And I'll be strong again. And I'll be healthy and everything I've always wated to be. Beautiful, wise, strong, and un-damaged...and of course the best parent I can be.

Up all night....busy all day...

      My poor little Gav had a horrible fever today, which meant he was awake all last night burning up and fussy. He's so lovey when he is sick and I enjoy it. It's the only time he wants anything to do with me, besides when I have food. Everything is always ALL about Daddy. You know, I don't get that. I spend all day with the kids. I feed them, dress them, play with them (all the fun stuff us Mom's do) and the minute Daddy walks in the door I get ignored. Why don't I get a standing ovation when I come home? I had to go to the store to get an ample supply of motrin and tylenoyl because we were out of it. Everyone ate dinner but me. I was too busy so I ate cereal at 7:30. I wasn't in the mood for steak anyway.

     I had to leave the kids with my sister today, so I can make up finals at school, and of course one of them had to be ill. I later noticed that he had white patches on his throat..uh oh...not a good sign. That usually means strep throat in our household. So tomorrow we are off to the doctors for antibiotics. While we're there they'll have to look at Chase too. Either that kid is allergic to the sun or he touched something that caused itty bitty bumps and swelling on his ears, face, and it spread to his arms. Whoo-Hoo, I now have 2 ill kids and a $150 doctors bill. Thank you air for carrying diseases. I'll send you the bill soon...I wish. 

    The best part of my day was tucking my sick little boys into their beds, giving them hugs, kisses and I love you's, and getting my time to relax. Oh wait, I didn't relax. I was to busy straightening up the house. Ha. Seriously, it was giving them hugs and kisses.

About us..

       Hi..I'm really new at this blog thing, but my name is Jenny, and I'm a mother of 2 boys. Chase is 5 and Gavin is almost 3. The point of this blog is to tell the world how much I LOVE my children, even when they make me yell and swear to shave my head like Britney Spears. So this is  my way to vent before letting it get that far! Oh, did I mention that I love my kids?

       Chase has the attitude problem of a 13 year old. When I ask him to do something, it's the end of the world and he's just too busy playing video games to be bothered with. Psshh... Well excuse me Mr. I'm 5 and I know everything. Trying to get him to eat normal food like mac n cheese, and what kid doesn't like that, is like pulling  teeth without anesthesia. He freaks out. If you make him try something new, he makes himself throw up. I am not kidding, he literally gags himself. Only my kid! BUT...He's extremely smart and loves to learn anything and everything. He's got a brain and he's not afraid to use it! He's sooo caring about people and animals. He loves going fishing with his Daddy. He's my Chase and I wouldn't have him any other way!

    I know I'm not the only 27 year old mother in the world that swears she gave birth to the devil (okay fine a brat), but man my 2 year old (Gavin) is tough. He gets into everything and anything, and almost always manages to break it. He's worse than Curious George. He has to touch everything..I'm not joking at all. I think he might have OCD or something. He lines up all his cars and if you touch one he has a conniption. He curses and tells people to shut up. I've tried to put this kid in time out. I've tried taking things away and threatening to not give him snacks. I've tried hot sauce (just a teeny dab on the finger), but he doesn't care. He just goes right back to doing what he did in the first place .BUT.... He's super cute. He loves to cuddle and give kisses. He's the first one to wipe your tears when your crying and he's there when your bleeding with toilet paper. He's my Gavin and I wouldn't have him any other way!

      I did mention that I love my kids right?